It’s funny actually. I was planning to write this and then Chashunk wrote his comment on my “Broken Toys” post. I have been told over and over that I try too hard. It’s my Type A personality I think. I always want to do the best I can do. I always want to have the happiest kids, dogs, home and lovers. I never thought of it as a flaw but I guess it really is!
Anyway, enough about that! Prior to reading Chashunk’s comment I had deleted all of my online dating accounts. He’s right. The single online dating scene is far different from Ashley Madison and not in a good way. It’s just not for me.
In addition one of my friends recommended a book called “Men Love Bitches”. At first I had a hard time parting with the ten bucks to download it on my kindle. A little known fact about Kitty is that I can be super cheap usually when it pertains to buying something for me. But I broke down and made the purchase. As promised this book changed my perspective. It may have changed my LIFE! At least for the time being.
In a nutshell the book is an empowering read which describes how men enjoy “the hunt” and if as a woman you go out of your way to make things easy for them, they lose interest in you and any potential for a relationship is gone. On the surface Kitty knew all of this already but Kitty HATES to play those games. Kitty HATES to play “hard to get” and Kitty HATES to fuck with people’s emotions.
For whatever reason, the way this book was written really made Kitty feel empowered. I can highly recommend the book.
Originally I had planned to write about the prospect of never having sex again. As people around me couple up one by one and as the holidays approach I am reminded that my prospects of ever having sex again are slim.
There were moments when the thought of never feeling a man’s hands on my body ever again made me sad. The thought of never feeling a hard cock inside me brought a tear to my eye. But then once again I realized that about 18 months ago I was living in a bad marriage with a man who was comfortable lying next to my naked body night after night without so much as brushing up against me.
Kitty is much MUCH happier and in all honesty I really do believe that someday I’ll feel those hands…I’ll feel that cock inside of me. Kitty has faith.