Satisfied by Unsatisfied

How was YOUR day today? I hope it was good because after reading this you may be jealous when you hear about mine. Can I tell you that I had an AWESOME afternoon? Do you know WHYYYYY I had an awesome afternoon? Well there is only one thing it could be.

You guessed it! Naughty kitty got laid today!!! I know you are saying “Naughty kitty, you get laid all the time.” Well today I had an unexpected encounter and they are extra special.

So, I was feeling pretty good this morning. I am playing with Surf and playing with C and Unsatisfied is in and out of there. Well for whatever reason Unsatisfied was extra frisky today and to make a long story short he did exactly what I love which is said “When are you going to email me that it is our turn to fuck”. Okay, he didn’t use those exact words but I am trying to get the meat of the story.

Unsatisfied and I chatted for most of the morning about when, where and how to meet. In the end as with most of my AM experiences these encounters cannot be planned. Luckily Unsatisfied knew of a hotel that was half way between the two of us so we agreed to meet there.

I have to say that the most wonderful thing about Unsatisfied was the first thing he said to me when I walked into the hotel room was “How can I make you more comfortable?” That alone made me more comfortable.

After a few moments of chatting about how and what to do we agreed to start by taking off our clothes. Unsatisfied is a service guy so he was dressed in uniform which was super sexy and super cute. He is also really tall which I love.

As with other encounters I have had we tried a variety of positions. Unsatisfied got to try reverse cowgirl for the first time. I love that I got to try a new position with him because although Unsatisfied is a good deal younger than me, he is more worldly when it comes to sex for some reason.

Oh yeah, let’s talk about the younger guy thing and sorry, Unsatisfied but we are talking double digits. You are DEFINITELY young compared to me. Don’t get me wrong, YOUNG IS GOOD.

Unsatisfied had a very short recovery period between orgasms so we were able to go two rounds. That in itself was WONDERFUL. I have not been with a man who has been able to cum twice in the same WEEK much less the same hour in …ummmmmm…..JEEZ-US! I don’t remember EVER being with a guy that quick.

Oh and listen, I was able to cum during the act of fucking. I haven’t done THAT in a while. Generally I require a tongue, finger or toy or something but Unsatisfied, DUDE, you are AWESOME.

The funny part of the day was that between our “sessions” Unsatisfied and I chatted. He reminded me that during one of our online chats we agreed that if we ever met we would meet, fuck and leave without any conversation. Unsatisfied admitted that he couldn’t resist having a chat in bed with me. So what does THAT tell ya about the Naughty Kitty?

I am not sure if he would agree but I think Unsatisfied and I are….wait for it….FRIENDS!!!! Unsatisfied, if you are reading this, I want to thank you again for a lovely afternoon in bed and I promise from this point forward I will follow all of our rules.

Mixed Messages

I have been giving off a lot of mixed messages lately. That goes against everything I believe typically. In my work life and my family life I am professional, “smart” and decisive. In my “secret life” as XXX calls it, I am just winging it which apparently is not my forte’.

So, I am sure Top Gun is reading this morning and waiting for me to write this so here it goes. He and I well, I am not sure why but we just cannot get in sync. While I think in the long run this could make for some amazing sex I just do not have the patience to deal with the back and forth banter right now.

I surely have my hands full with XXX. He and I are friends as well as lovers and so after we make love fuck we talk. He opens up to me just like he always has. It hurts now because I am deep into him but we press on because let’s face it XXX and I will never fall in love and have the fairy tale ending so I am steadfast that I want to be his friend. I comfort him with my pussy when he needs it and I listen to him mourn the loss of his marriage and the woman that he is still in love with. I listen and encourage him to date even though every date he tells me about is like a dagger to my heart.

So when Top Gun emailed me something about one of his women and being out to dinner which I picture as a romantic dinner I thought to myself “enough is enough”. I will be a sounding board for XXX but I will not take on another man who is in love with another woman that he cannot be with. For the record this is a total party killer.

And so, I am sorry Top Gun. I know I send out mixed messages but I am sure you will find another pussy to stick your dick into and I will be a distant memory.

If “Unsatisfied” is reading this, do I make you proud? Rule number 4, I believe.

New Rules:

As expected I have been catching a bunch of shit over the blog I wrote over the weekend about falling for XXX. What can I say? I fucked up and I know it.

Can I tell you though that odd as it may sound I have a little network of AM consultants that are guiding me through in my time of need.  This has been a curse and a blessing my entire life. I have always managed to make friends with men more easily that with women and so while several men have contacted me about hooking up I am still in contact with several men on a platonic basis.

So tonight when I got online I immediately caught shit from my buddy who we will call “Unsatisfied”. He is an army guy. Oh yeah I have this new thing for military/ex military guys. I’ll write about it in another blog but for now “Unsatisfied” was bustin’ on me about falling for XXX after he has been coaching me against such things.

So after a bit of a chat lashing, “Unsatisfied” gave me a new set of rules to go by from now on so LISTEN-UP!

1.      No hook-ups with anyone in any of your circles, work or personal.  This needs to be researched a little.  Same area you live or work. Be careful.  Same business as you, also be careful. This is where “Unsatisfied “and I agree that I fucked up with XXX. Even though XXX has mentioned several times that he is “shitting where he eats”, I have more to lose by far than he does and we both know it.

2.      Types of communication allowed.  With more communication comes more opportunity to know someone outside of the bedroom.  Keep it to emails or chats and avoid stuff not related to what the ultimate goal is, unless that info is being shared to avoid getting caught or avoid playing too close to one of your circles. Number 1. No one in any of your circles, work or personal. This needs to be researched a little. Same area you live or work, be careful. Same business as you, also be careful

Again, I trust “Unsatisfied” with this one. I fucked up with XXX on this one too. Our general rule is no texts, calls etc. I ALWAYS break it. The temptation is too great and I have to stop.

 G and I do not have a problem at all. We exchanged cell numbers for our meeting but deleted them once we parted. I couldn’t contact him if I tried. For whatever reason the temptation is not there for me when it comes to trying to contact G.

3.      Always have a dedicated email account to use for this game. This much I have done.

4.      If you feel yourself getting too close, walk away. Don't hang around to see if you can reverse the feelings, just walk away.  And tell them up front if things end abruptly that is why.

This is a hard one for me. “Unsatisfied” suggested a string of one night stands to get this nonsense out of my system but we both agree that I may not be cut out for this “world”. I can’t walk away from G or from XXX at this point.

5.      Condoms are NOT an option. They MUST be used. I asked “Unsatisfied”, “So I am with a guy who can't cum because he is wearing a condom and I walk away?”  That’s right, I’m a hard ass now!

So with my new set of rules I am going out into the harsh world and try to apply them. My buddy Top Gun has generously offered up his services to be my “tester” model.

Top Gun and I have been emailing back and forth. He is a planner just like me. Right now we are in heavy negotiations over the condom issue. In reality Top Gun is being a real sport about this whole thing and as much as I’d love to throw him a bone “Unsatisfied” has talked me up so now I am feeling like a real hard ass.

As we ended our chat, “Unsatisfied” added, “If we hadn't chatted so much to where I feel like we are trying to accomplish something (fixing you) I would have disappeared a long time ago.”

I am thinking more and more that there is NO fixing me.