I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately. I am not sure why. Maybe it’s because his hometown is all over the news after Hurricane Sandy. The news is talking about all the devastation especially to the high end homes. I wonder if his home was one of them.
I think about how much of an influence he has had over my life over the past year and how I haven’t affected his at all. I suppose he thought of me as a pest after that afternoon that we had together. But it really wasn’t my fault. I hadn’t realized it was a onetime thing. I mean all along he swore he wanted more. And like a fool I believed him. He lied every step of the way and I believed each and every one of his lies.
I think that’s what bothers me so much. That he purposely and consistently lied to me.
I know in time it won’t bother me so much. I may be able to drive past the Starbucks where we met without thinking about him. I may even be able to go in sometime and order coffee. I may be able to hear the name of his town someday without hearing his voice in my head. I may even be able to listen to the songs that reminded me of him without becoming sad at the thought.
I have moved on with my life and I have never been happier. I don’t regret that part of my life but I don’t miss it either. I love my life. I love my family and friends. Happy Holidays friends. There are many more happy times to come.