I’ve been
thinking about him a lot lately. I am not sure why. Maybe it’s because his
hometown is all over the news after Hurricane Sandy. The news is talking about
all the devastation especially to the high end homes. I wonder if his home was
one of them.
I think
about how much of an influence he has had over my life over the past year and
how I haven’t affected his at all. I suppose he thought of me as a pest after
that afternoon that we had together. But it really wasn’t my fault. I hadn’t
realized it was a onetime thing. I mean all along he swore he wanted more. And
like a fool I believed him. He lied every step of the way and I believed each
and every one of his lies.
I think that’s
what bothers me so much. That he purposely and consistently lied to me.
I know in
time it won’t bother me so much. I may be able to drive past the Starbucks
where we met without thinking about him. I may even be able to go in sometime
and order coffee. I may be able to hear the name of his town someday without
hearing his voice in my head. I may even be able to listen to the songs that
reminded me of him without becoming sad at the thought.
I have moved
on with my life and I have never been happier. I don’t regret that part of my
life but I don’t miss it either. I love my life. I love my family and friends.
Happy Holidays friends. There are many more happy times to come.
4 comments:
Stumbled across your blog. Like the simplicity of your writing, and the smooth flow and pace of your words.
So far read down to July 2012.
As to this particular post. I still have probably not read enough of your blog to leave a precise comment....but here is to the old college try. As you seem to be very single, make sure that emotionally you can be detached unless you are looking for a committed relationship. If not, then you are going to get hurt and make bad choices.
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Thanks for reading! You may do better reading from the beginning forward. Things get sticky around this time last year trying to sort out my relationship with XXX. And yes, you are right I have learned the lesson and I have learned it the hard way. I am very much single now and loving every minute of my freedom. I have no intention of committing to anybody other than my kids any time soon.
Thanks for your reply. Most people can't help becoming attached in some way or shape....but you never know. Guards up. :) Call it a quirk but if I start reading from the most current and then work my way down to the past.....and enjoy said reading material....then it makes no difference to me reading it in reverse. It's probably a good task for our brains. Someone needs to do a study on this quick! A.
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