The problem is I'm not always good at letting go. I've made some friends here and I don't want to lose them. I can't say that I have any regrets. I believe everything we do shapes us into who we are today. As I watch my kids grow into adults, I think of myself at their age. I was a "good girl". I led a relatively sheltered life. I got married very young, had a baby, got divorced...RE-married and had more kids. It wasn't until I divorced Angry Guy that I really did the things I should have done in my 20's. I don't regret that.
Interestingly enough my 20 something daughter has become quite active sexually. It's to be expected right? I mean the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. Am I right? So the other day Kitty's little kitten started talking about threesomes. All I could think was, "You go, Little Kitten!!!"
I think the thing that has affected me the most is the death of Angry Guy. Since his death I've been helping the kids settle his estate. We've been going through old pictures and old videos. I have to admit that when I watch some of those early videos I fall in love with Angry Guy all over again. Our kids have chosen to believe he was my one true love. I can't say that I disagree.
As a result of all of this self reflection I have lost my lust for...well...lust. I have no interest in any of the men from my past and really no interest in anybody currently. So now what?
3 comments:
Hiya Kitty! Good question... and so good that you can reflect and chart your course! Hope it will be a good path, whichever way you turn. It's fun to hear what's up with you, even if it doesn't involve new men all the time.
I wish I'd had a parent who would talk about sex, so it would not have taken me until after I turned 50 to begin to explore all the wonders of it. Good for you for supporting your daughter on her journey!
-Sassy
Kitty I have always enjoyed Your posts and hope that You will reconsider and regroup at some point. You provide a Female POV to us guys that we value. You helped me learn about fetishes and normalize them. Because of Your sweetness and genuine friendship, you enabled me to live my dream of being exposed, fully naked, in photographs for Women to view on the internet and on Your blog. To this day my head is spinning over You doing this so You and other Women can be amused and entertained by my exposed vulnerable nude body body. I am forever grateful that You did this! I bet You will progress on and and rediscover Your joy of blogging once this bump in the road is behind You.
Just found you again from like nearly 10 years ago. I'll read up and comment more.
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