I’ve been
thinking about him a lot lately. I am not sure why. Maybe it’s because his
hometown is all over the news after Hurricane Sandy. The news is talking about
all the devastation especially to the high end homes. I wonder if his home was
one of them.
I think
about how much of an influence he has had over my life over the past year and
how I haven’t affected his at all. I suppose he thought of me as a pest after
that afternoon that we had together. But it really wasn’t my fault. I hadn’t
realized it was a onetime thing. I mean all along he swore he wanted more. And
like a fool I believed him. He lied every step of the way and I believed each
and every one of his lies.
I think that’s
what bothers me so much. That he purposely and consistently lied to me.
I know in
time it won’t bother me so much. I may be able to drive past the Starbucks
where we met without thinking about him. I may even be able to go in sometime
and order coffee. I may be able to hear the name of his town someday without
hearing his voice in my head. I may even be able to listen to the songs that
reminded me of him without becoming sad at the thought.
I have moved
on with my life and I have never been happier. I don’t regret that part of my
life but I don’t miss it either. I love my life. I love my family and friends.
Happy Holidays friends. There are many more happy times to come.