Monday, August 27, 2012

And Here We Are...The End


Every so often I check into Ashley Madison to check on some of my old friends. My profile is hidden so I don’t consider myself active. I usually just sign on and check my favorites list then sign off.

Today when I signed on my favorites list seemed a little longer than usual. And then…I saw him…Hammer. I’m not sure if he is looking for someone younger, prettier, thinner, and sexier.

Oh I understand that Hammer and I were never going to have a happy ending. I understand that we weren’t in love. I understand that he was bound to get tired of me. I just didn’t expect to see him on there without some sort of warning I guess.
I thought for sure we would be able to get through the summer together. We were both busy and Kitty was looking forward to seeing Hammer soon. We were so close Hammer. Just another week or two and we would be home free. We were still emailing and he was reading my blog. I hadn’t heard from him all week. I assumed he was busy with work or his family so I sent him a quick message to let him know I missed him.

But he was already gone I guess. I keep telling myself it was bound to happen and so the end is here. Hammer, if you are reading this I wish you the best and hope you find what you are looking for.

As for Kitty…well…I am moving forward.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kitty, just curious. Why do you think it's the end? You are posting on here about all kinds of dating sites you are checking out...just because you were doing that didn't mean you weren't still interested in Hammer. Why would Hammer's unhiding his profile mean the end for you guys? Can't you do both? Why can't he? These things are very fluid aren't they? Maybe he was reading into some of your posts about other guys that you weren't interested in him anymore. Why would a guy keep hanging around with a hidden profile when he's reading about you going on dates with other guys? Meanwhile, you don't have time for him? Yes you haven't heard from him, but honestly, if I were him, I wouldn't know what place I had in your life. Transitions are tough. He seemed like a good outlet for you. I just hate to see you give up on him.
- GF

WestsideTori said...

I'm with GF on this.

Hammer, if you're reading, reach out to Kitty and have a talk with her.

Ponyboy said...

I was going to post something, but it looks like the ladies summed it up pretty good above.

Good luck, I hope you guys reconnect.

Naughty Kitty said...

It's a little more complicated than that. Hammer and I both have our Vanilla lives. I have been #2 to his wife and can accept that of course. Given the fact that I am now single but ADORE Hammer I was willing to continue our relationship under the same terms. He and I communicate via text and email so he knows that although I write about other men I have not been with another man since I met him.

Having said that, I am disappointed that I was not enough for him and he felt compelled to look for other women. I am single now. I am ready and deserve to be someone's #1. I will not stand in line behind a string of other girlfriends. I deserve better. As I said, I wish Hammer the best but the trust is gone and that for me is a deal breaker.

Ponyboy said...

Fair enough... You certainly know better than anyone else, and there is nothing wrong with wanting to be someone's #1

Mrs. M said...

Sorry to hear! Loved your Hammer stories!! I'm certain that your amazing stories will continue although I know "hammers" are not always easy to come by!

Anonymous said...

Not looking, was just a long distance friend....

Me

Naughty Kitty said...

I miss you Baby :(

Anonymous said...

See? I knew Hammer was still hot for Kitty :)
-GF

Naughty Kitty said...

Trust me on this one. That couldn't be farther from the truth. Hammer was looking for an out. He got it and he's on AM looking for someone younger, thinner, more beautiful. But I assure you, there is only one Kitty like me.

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