The funny thing about all that’s been going on around here is that my sex drive is nearly nonexistent. Oh listen…I WILL come back. Something tells me I can muster up a little something for Hammer if he is up for it but in the meantime I have no desire to see who is on Ashley Madison, no desire to fuck XXX and quite honestly, no desire to masturbate. I KNOW!!! RIGHT?!?!?!
Oh the other night I was all wound up. I needed to relax. I thought I could do it. I pulled out my favorite little toy and closed my eyes. I thought of Hammer of course. Damn he feels good inside of me. I tried to remember that. I tried to remember how he feels on top of me. I tried to remember how I feel when I am on top of him and more importantly I tried to remember how he feels from behind. Damn I miss Hammer from behind.
I just could not get there. I think once things subside I will be able to get back in the saddle…or back on Hammer…hopefully.
If not…the irony would not be lost on me.