Lunching With XXX

This morning I ran into XXX in the parking lot. Okay…I lied. I was heading into the building; he drove past me so I turned around and walked to meet him at his car. I wanted to ask him if his lunch offer still stood…NO…not sex…LUNCH!

Angry Guy is off today and I make it a point not to have play dates on his days off so lunch and only lunch is what I had in mind. Sure enough when I said to XXX “Hey is your lunch invitation for today still open?” He said to me “Lunch? You mean FOOD?”

Of course knowing what he was asking I said, “Yes lunch…just lunch. Food and only food.” He seemed relieved. See, that’s the thing with him. One minute he will ask me what I think about starting our affair again then he will have second thoughts about it.

As I was explaining to my friend Parker, right now I am okay with all of that. If I were to take the next step and go back to fucking XXX his wishy washy behavior would make me crazy. Right now I can tell XXX that I feel this way. Right now I feel like I can tell him anything. He knows all of my secrets and I know his. He can talk to me about other women and I have no hard feelings at all. We are friends…special friends who have seen each other naked.

There were a few moments around noon when he emailed me and said he had to review some reports for an afternoon conference call that he had then he realized he had already reviewed them so we were able to go.

I know my happiness should not rely so heavily on a lunch date but believe me work can be so boring that I need SOMETHING to look forward to. I actually got that little piece of advice from the headshrinker way back when although at the time I am pretty sure she was not including getaways in hotel rooms with strange men as a viable incentive.

So XXX and I drove to lunch for the first time ever in the same car. He has some sporty car that he thinks will attract more women. Personally it does not appeal to me. I often tell him that he should get one of the sporty models of the BMW but let’s face it, he never takes my advice.

The restaurant was down the road and packed when we got there. We managed to find a private table in the corner with high stools which typically I am not comfortable in but I didn’t want to be difficult. I knew this was a little uncomfortable for XXX who is used to eating alone in his office which seems more and more like a dungeon.

We ordered and began to talk. I think one of the things that make XXX uncomfortable is that he still does not get that I say what I mean and I mean what I say. So even though I have told him hundreds of times that I am over the pain of our affair and am happy being platonic friends he can’t help but be on edge that I am not being truthful. We can thank his cunt wife for that I think. She is one of those women that send mixed messages and women like me have to suffer for all the mind games she plays.

So XXX and I discussed his current situation with his wife who by the way is still a cunt. Little by little XXX is coming to the realization that he needs to file divorce papers. I am to the point where I am supporting him no matter what but we both agree there will be no hanky panky between us because for whatever reason all that cunt has to do is snap her fingers and XXX with drop whoever his dick is in for her.

We discussed my blog, friends I have made through my blog which completely fascinates XXX.

I was also able to get XXX’s take on the other men in my life. He insists that Angry Guy is an anomaly and that he has forced me into this life style that I have been living. Personally I think that is a copout but I appreciate XXX’s support as a friend.

Lunch ended on a high note and although we didn’t actually discuss our personal affair I believe we are on the same page and both realize that the time has passed and we are better off as friends.

Later in the evening XXX texted me. He was at a school program for his son. His cunt wife had shown up with her first ex husband as a date. Poor XXX. I can only imagine how heartbroken he was. I am hoping this is the push he needs to finally move forward with his life. He is a wonderful man and if he would just get his head out of that cunt’s ass he would be able to meet someone who would show him that.