Friday, March 16, 2012

Bad Feelings

I woke up with a bad feeling today. I am due to meet T-Bone. I don’t have a bad feeling about him. I have a bad feeling about the timing. Maybe “bad” is not a great word…UNEASY.

I started feeling differently when my client and I decided to meet. There is a part of me that wants to save all of my energy for him. Our meeting is tentative. It can be cancelled based on his schedule at any time. In fact we were joking yesterday and as I told him “I am basically ‘on call’”. Even though my client and I agreed to meet I had made a commitment to T-Bone and didn’t want to let him down.

This uneasy feeling has more to do with Angry Guy and the kids. I feel much more at ease at my encounters when Angry Guy is at ease. The coffee thing with XXX put Angry Guy on alert which makes me jumpy then paranoid. So, Angry Guy goes off to work without a word about yesterday then the kids start waking up. My daughter woke up not feeling well. That is another thing that puts me on edge. The school nurse can call anytime. If I don’t pick up my cell the call goes right to Angry Guy’s phone. If he can’t reach me…well…it’s all over.

I considered texting T-Bone just to let him know what was going on. Maybe he has something similar going on at his house. Maybe he will want to postpone. Maybe he has a bad…uneasy feeling as well.


Ben said...

Edgy is unsettling. Having many things to juggle. How did we ever handle this when we were all young and single and dating and sleeping around? So you have (i) T-Bone and (ii) client to juggle. Hard to say. Does Angry Guy need a mistress?

Naughty Kitty said...

Ah, good point Ben. Well, I never did this when I was young. Angry Guy can barely manage me he is the first to tell you he could never handle a mistress and The Client is already out of the picture from what I can tell.