Kitty Needs Advice

This morning XXX and I were emailing back and forth. He seemed like he was in a pretty good mood. He was the only one working in the office so we were going back and forth about how the others were “weak” for not working during the holiday week. So of course XXX emailed me and asked how my holiday went. I decided to just tell him what he wanted to hear because I could not deal with his general condescending attitude so I said “Great how was yours?” There was no response and yet we exchanged a few more emails so I repeated “HOW WAS YOUR HOLIDAY”???

My logic was that I knew for sure that this being the first Christmas in his reconciled marital state that XXX would be downright giddy and possibly too much for me to handle without throwing up so I decided to try to get it out of him in an email. Well wouldn’t you know that there is trouble in paradise. XXX began to tell me that she was starting to revert back to her cold self. The wife that he used to refer to as his “Cunt wife” was resurfacing. I jokingly told XXX to hold onto his apartment which he was due to move out of at the end of January. I told him jokingly that I would split the cost with him. We exchanged a few more emails then I stopped by his office on my way out.

We talked about what transpired over the holiday in his house then we began talking about what is going to happen there. He mentioned the possibility of keeping his place and staying married but taking on a mistress. He also mentioned that if his wife had not approached him about reconciling back in October, he and I would probably still be together.
Then XXX began asking me about my situation. I mentioned that I was turning over a new leaf which surprised him for some reason. We discussed the fact that I am not cut out for the Ashley Madison lifestyle and somehow XXX managed to describe what I need in a relationship which is exactly what I have been saying. He said “Kitty, what you need is a regular schedule with someone. Someone you can count on.” He then compared me to the mistress of the French Prime Minister who had the same mistress for 30 years or something. I reiterated what XXX said and confessed that our love affair was as close to what I am looking for as I have gotten.

We have come a long way XXX and I. There were some wonderful things about our affair but when it ended I was devastated. I wonder if since XXX and I have already discussed these things if we tried again if we COULD make it work again. He admits he is still sexually attracted to me. I myself have had my friend hat on lately but I am sure it wouldn’t take long to get back to being XXX’s Naughty Kitty. We would of course work on the orgasm but I think I could relax this time. Although I am sure he would go back to drinking which was not good for his own orgasm. And what about when things end this time around? Could I recover quicker having been through it? You may remember my writing that I wanted to have my pussy sewn shut if I ever considered going back to XXX and yet…

I am asking the question you have all been waiting for…IF XXX offered up that affair once again would I, SHOULD I take him up on it????