Tuesday, December 13, 2011

The High

There’s nothing like the feeling you get when you make a special connection with another person whether it be a friend or a lover. It’s a high. It’s a feeling like no other. It’s rawness like the slightest breeze will cut through you and push you over.

Every now and then I get a text or an email…from HIM. This morning he sent me a simple text that said simply “I’m thinking about you, Kitty xoxoxox”.

I wanted to cry. As simple as it was, it brightened my dismal morning. I had butterflies in my stomach. It took my breath away. I wonder if he knows just how much those small gestures mean to me. Maybe that’s not good. Maybe if he knows he will back away just like all the others. Only he is NOT like all the others.

There is sensitivity, vulnerability, sincerity that none of the others had. He reminded me the other day that I discounted him originally. It nearly broke my heart. God I am an idiot. The real crime is who I let in. The real crime is that I was listening to all the wrong men when he was waiting patiently for me to realize.

What can I do to make it up to him? What can I do to make him see my regret?

Happy Birthday, Baby xoxoxox


Anonymous said...

So what was it about him that made you initiallly reject him and, more importantly, how did he get back into your attention after you had done that? Was he an AM find?

Naughty Kitty said...

I am laughing at you choice of words. Yes, he was an AM "find". At the time I met quite a few seemingly nice men. He didn't say or do anything wrong at all. There were some others that were much more aggressive which is what I thought I was looking for at the time. But they were jerks. They were just in it for the conquest. They said or did whatever they thought they had to to get me into bed then disappeared without so much as a goodbye.

He is very patient and calm which is good for me. My personality as you may be able to tell is more high strung, more "spicey".

I can't say that I "rejected" him. This is a strong word. We stayed in touch but did not discuss meeting in person until the dust had cleared.

Also, he read my blog. That was a huge turn on for me.

Meeting him in person sealed the deal. He is such a sweetheart.

Anonymous said...

geesh you can make a guy blush ~smooches~

Naughty Kitty said...

I need to taste you in person for that to count my love ;)