Today’s post is a much different post than I had originally planned. I know you were all waiting…waiting to read…waiting to read about my encounter with Rav.
But then something happened that in my mind deems mentioning. See, I have not always been a prowler. There was a time in my life when I was a “good girl”. I was protected by my father and in my youth unknowingly I was protected by several boys that could have taken advantage of me but just never did.
Through the power of Facebook I am friends again with these boys who have now grown into men. One or two of them come to mind specifically. “Bad Boy” for sure. Bad boy was “The ONE” I thought. No, not the one I would marry. I thought Bad Boy was going to take my virginity but he took a step back. I was never quite sure why. Since we are in touch again and true friends I asked him recently and he told me that I put out a “VIBE”. Something told him not to do it. Something told him I wasn’t ready emotionally. He didn’t want to hurt me.
Now that I am a grown woman and a prowler quite frankly I no longer come upon these people. People who care. Men, I should say. I understand. Why should any man care about my feelings at this stage of the game? I should have control by now shouldn’t I?
But I digress. I happen to have made some “friends” through this whole Ashley Madison experience. Confidantes if you will namely Unsatisfied and The Artful Dodger.
Why do you call him The Artful Dodger, Kitty? You may be asking.
Well, Dodger and I met several months ago on AM. When things with XXX were hot I kind of kept Dodger at bay. He’s a doll. Well anyway, Dodger and I met in person when XXX went away and he is as cute as can be. The thing that makes Dodger so cute to me isn’t just his looks although he is cute. The thing that makes Dodger cute to ME is that he does that teasing thing with me. I LOVE that. He has that devilish side and teases me through chat which we all know means that he will be a tease in the bedroom. So Dodger and I were having scheduling issues. I would suggest meeting and for some reason or another it would not work for him. No problem. Then time passed. I met Rav and for whatever reason this is the time Dodger decided he wanted to finally have our encounter. I made the mistake of telling him that I wanted to hold off until I saw where this thing with Rav was going.
Dodger did not like this and although he continued to tease some of his remarks were cutting. The other night I made a comment to him about getting together and he made a flip remark about me needing material for my blog. OUCH! And not true by the way.
So last night after my encounter with Rav I had a little exchange with Dodger. It started out as most of our chats do:
Dodger: How’s kitty
Naughty Kitty: good how's my favorite dodger?
Dodger: I’m ur fav
Naughty Kitty: favorite dodger
Naughty Kitty: lol
Dodger: How’s ur kitty, fresh n neglected
Dodger: So special
Naughty Kitty: were your ears burning today?
Naughty Kitty: I was talking about you today
Dodger: No, why
Naughty Kitty: like I said...I was talking about you...
Dodger:U have a confidant
Naughty Kitty:i told Rav what you said about me wanting to fuck you for material for my blog
I did not mention, by the way, that Rav and I were in bed when this conversation happened and Rav was literally inside of me.
Dodger: Who’s rav
Naughty Kitty: yes
Dodger: So u had a, date
Dodger:R u allowed to chat w other men
Dodger: Is he that good
Naughty Kitty: you are missing the point
So you can see where things were going. Dodger is not supportive of the idea of being exclusive to Rav. I have to say that I like the fact that Dodger looks after me a little bit if in fact that is what he is doing.
He is always on top of me about condoms and making sure I use them. He was the first person I contacted after my scary meeting with C. So at the end of our chat Dodger made a comment that I just can’t get out of my mind when I told him a little more.
Dodger:U r gullible
Naughty Kitty: perhaps
Naughty Kitty: what do you care?
Dodger: Why wouldn't I
Dodger: Just want u to have fun not get hurt
And there it is…”Just want u to have fun and not get hurt”. Funny, I want exactly the same thing. But I have to ask, is that possible in the life of a prowler?
Whether it is or it isn’t I have to say that I am grateful to have a friend like Dodger who at least TRIES to keep me safe and from getting my feelings hurt.
Dodger, you may be right on this one. Rav may be playing me just like XXX but I just have to let myself trust just one more time. I have to let myself believe that Rav is one of the good guys.
Time will tell.