I often wonder why men drop out suddenly. Are they dropping out of “The Life” or are they just dropping me?
It’s okay I suppose. There is always someone else just around the corner. I never used to think this way. There was a time when I was a trusting, loving, strong woman. I am not hardened by any means but I am no longer trusting. This makes me sad to a degree. It also makes me reflect on the wonderful people who exist in my life on a day to day basis. These are the people I can love. These are the people who honor my love and do not treat me as though I am disposable. These are the people I can trust. I have forged bonds with these men and women that can last a lifetime.
I wasn’t lying when I told XXX that my life is full of some amazing people. It is. I just need a reminder every now and then.
Those of you reading this have never met me in person and you may never meet me in person. If I had to describe myself I would say that I am loyal. I am loving and I am also very sensitive. When I am happy I am very very happy. When I am sad, which is not very often, I do get very sad.
The lesson that I wanted to learn from Ashley Madison was how to let go of that sensitive side. I wanted to toughen up a bit. I believed that this would build my character and in some way help me in my career.
The lesson that I HAVE learned is that I am ME. I may never be tough and that is okay. I just need to learn to weed out the trash from the amazing people in my life.
Life is a gift that I do not take for granted. LOVE is a gift that I do not take for granted. I am able to receive love but more importantly I am able to GIVE love. If you are lucky enough to get love from me please honor it and don’t just drop out of sight.