Friday, April 27, 2012

"Peaceful Easy Feeling"

Last night XXX and I texted back and forth quite a bit. He was consoling me. I kept trying to explain that I wasn’t so upset about losing this last lover. It was the fact that after all our conversations the first thing that popped into his head about me is that I am FAT. Oh, don’t get me wrong. I KNOW I am fat. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure that out but as I said before, I can lose the weight.  But really there is more to Kitty then just the fact that I am “temporarily weight challenged”. And by the way, it’s not so much that I am fat as that I am short. I’d be the perfect weight if I were just a few inches taller.

Okay, enough about that. The point is that I am motivated to buckle down and lose the weight. More importantly I am motivated to stay on the straight and narrow with a little thing called “Fidelity”. In all honesty I have been enjoying not having to constantly look over my shoulder lately. There are no potential lovers out there other than XXX.

Last night while he was trying to pump up my ego he said that he would lick the alphabet over my body if he could. Kitty had to remind XXX that we have an agreement. XXX said “agreement for what? I never agreed to anything.” XXX really is a sweetheart. Believe me it would not take any effort at all for me to take that ride over to his place at lunch time. It wouldn’t take any effort at all for me to look into those crystal blue eyes of his then fall into his kiss. I can see myself walking up to his bedroom like so many times before. I could make love to XXX without any effort at all. My heart and soul would be completely into it. And then I remember the pain I felt when we ended the first time. At least now when one of these jerks hurt me I can go to XXX for comfort. But if I lose him again…If I lose our friendship…

So, as I like to do after losing a lover, I am going to take a break from the life of a prowler. Just a break…for now because quite frankly after all the drama with the last jerk I am sincerely enjoying that peaceful easy feeling of just being an ordinary wife and mother.

16 comments:

Ben said...

Sounds like a reasonable plan. Peace is good, and you can focus on your other goals. Given the way the world usually works, I'll end up with a trip to cheese-steak-land in two weeks while you are on the wagon, so to speak ;-)

Naughty Kitty said...

You are a cruel cruel man Ben. xoxoxo

Leah said...

LOL Kitty.....I sympathise. I should be 6 feet 6 inches for my weight!

WestsideTori said...

Ben, I'll bet you can get Kitty off........the wagon.

Kitty, if anyone says anything about your weight, there's an anecdote attributed to Winston Churchill (how gross to mention Winston Churchill on a sex blog). He was drunk at a party and Lady Astor called him on it. He said, "yes madam. And you are terribly ugly. But in the morning, I shall be sober."

So fat can be fleeting, but stupid is forever.

Naughty Kitty said...

Exactly Tori! And yes...if anybody can get me "off the wagon" it's Ben.

Ben said...

Tori -- Kitty brought my attention to the fact that this is a hiatus, temporary, a moment to regain strength ... she is not entering a monastery. Oh, I forgot, the Trribe does not do celibacy. And Shabbat is creeping up.

בברכה

Ben

WestsideTori said...

Ben, how did you know Hebrew makes me hot? And I'm sure you know what the Talmud says it's a mitzvah to do on Friday night. With your spouse, that is.

(Tori, don't get mad at me for that little flirt.)

WestsideTori said...

Oops I meant Kitty. These pseudonyms are getting mixed up in my mind.

Naughty Kitty said...

Okay Tori, now it's my turn to say "GET A ROOM!"...and Shabbat Shalom and yes...the Sabbath is for orgasms ;)

Naughty Kitty said...

Okay Tori, now it's my turn to say "GET A ROOM!"...and Shabbat Shalom and yes...the Sabbath is for orgasms ;)

Ben said...

Tori and Kitty - Do not get the idea that my ability to use Hebrew is extensive. It's been a long time since age 13.

Naughty Kitty said...

It's not your use of Hebrew that turns me on Ben...you know that.

Ben said...

Well, Kitty, if you are instructing us to get a room, and Tori is amenable, well ... If I catch a 4:00 PM flight, I can be on the west coast before three stars are visible ...

Naughty Kitty said...

Do what you gotta do Ben.

Ben said...

All in the interests of following the mitzvot.

WestsideTori said...

Guys, you know other people are reading this and thinking we're a bunch of nuts. (Wave to Kitty's fans.). Or they're getting a kick out of it, if they're MOTs.